Well, I was lucky enough (or dumb enough; see: finances, emotions) to come back to my parents' home for the holidays. I am so glad, regardless of the more than a month's pay it cost me, that I made the decision to buy plane tickets and come home for Christmas. It feels so good to be here.
I know I'm going to have a tough time going back to Düsseldorf.
But, I've decided to buck up. I'm nearing the halfway mark of my contract now, and I can soon start a countdown. I have a feeling that such a countdown may not be healthy, but damn, it will feel good. I've also decided that New Year's Day does not constitute the beginning of a new year, new phase for me. I'm going to use it as a reminder to change my attitude... and then, at the end of my contract, I'm going to celebrate, call it a "new year," and move into a new phase in my life.
So, as such, with this new attitude business, I'm just going to renew my efforts to try to get involved in Düsseldorf, to take some classes that will be fun and help me meet people, and to travel around and meet friends old and new. Sure, this will not at all help me to save any money, but at this point, I think my happiness is more important.
Happy new year to all, and hopefully I'll be blogging about more positive feelings and experiences in 2011.
